brandonman wrote:Newcastle. Should have picked up liquor. First ever breakup, and it was a crazy one, and just found out about the new guy, and still feel shitty about the whole thing. Suppressing anxiety shakes (They're not even withdrawal shakes)
I'd actually felt much better, and then she fed me a weird line of shit on blahblahblah the new guy was some 'blahblahblah he needed help deflecting a literally insane chick blahblahblah we should hang out this weekend", and I anticipated meeting her saturday to actually either nail in a coffin this shit or pin her down on what the fuck happened, at least. Didn't happen because, paraphrasing "lol mom wants me to clean all day saturday xDDD"
This shit is retarded. She's 22, and lives with her mother, sure, but Really? Your mother wanting to clean blows the notion of us meeting Saturday evening for dinner or drinks to talk this out?
I shouldn't be hammered because I have to be up at 8 tomorrow, but Christ. Too much pressure, from too many angles that include this.
Should've bought whiskey instead of beer. Last couple weeks have wrecked my diet and lifting I've been doing since december. Haven't lifted in two weeks, and now this week my should feels fucked.